To A Cinder

by Bone & Bell

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1.
my little anchor, you're dragging me down the weight of that look, the weight of that frown my little anchor, you sink like a stone, smell like hell, and feel just like home I love you, babe I'm not sure why I love you, babe I'll keep on trying my little anchor, you're keeping me calm my head's in a storm you are still like a psalm my little anchor, you're not keeping pace can't ask a wave to stay in one place I love you, babe I can't deny it I love you, babe I'll keep on trying my little anchor, how can I stay there's iron in my belly, rusting away my little anchor, it's you that I love more than the sea or stars up above I love you, babe I can't deny it I love you, babe I'll keep on trying I will try and try and try again I will try
2.
gave this city all my youth ground it down with loud and crowds and soot and truth gave this worry all my life held it's hand for years until it asked to be my wife down and below again, again gave my courage to a queen she smiled so beguiled said she didn't need a thing, but him gave my conscience to a king held it out with meaning as if it meant a thing to him down and below again down and below again, again nowhere to go but down and below gave you my final thought cleared out all the corners just before they fell to rot gave you my final words tossed them into nothing watched them scatter like scared birds down and below again down and below again, again and I won't deny I don't stand a chance
3.
breaking at the seams splitting my head with red laser beams driving way too fast gave it all I had, then I gave it more gave all I had, what I had before gave it all I had then I gave it more gas on a record day, I will find the words to say bow and pray until there's nothing that I am I will simply fade away on a mountainside, I will drive into the sky climb so high until there's nothing but blue, blue sky and I I will fly I will fly I will fly floating lighter than air if there's something going on out there, I don't care driving over the edge too bad the only hammer I have is a too bad the only hammer I have is a too bad the only hammer I have is a sledge on a mountainside, I will drive into the sky climb so high until there's nothing but blue, blue sky and I I will fly I will die I will fly fly, fly, fly, fly
4.
all I see snake, skin, teeth is this eating me all that I could be is vanishing gradually all I fear it's right here is this all me floating out to sea a cement symphony all these lessons ripe with sting red, wet weapons glistening with me it's what I need to be free it's all I can see all I am hologram just a smear of me smiling docilely a spiritual amputee all these lessons ripe with sting red, wet weapons glistening with me it's what I need to be free it's all I can see
5.
Whiskey Sea 03:31
I cannot leave but this job is killing me feeding the machine makes me drunk and mean I'm lost in a whiskey sea it's drowning drunken me I can't quite reach I am slurring all my speech stumbling over feet wobbling tower of meat I'm lost in a whiskey sea it's drowning drunken me I cannot see my life beyond the factory stumbling over feet wobbling tower of meat I'm lost in a whiskey sea it's drowning drunken me
6.
mortal moment, please leave me weak in the knees let me see the forest and the trees holy hunger, show your appetite for what to know show what I require if I am to grow tiny terror, rise from my lungs and clear my eyes let me see myself at my true size wakeful wonder, be in everything, including me fill the air, the emptiness that I breathe
7.
long thighs longing eyes could tell by the way that you stared neither of us was prepared to say our goodbyes all of my words in pieces all my will at bay all I've hid in creases these little pieces open, on display have your way with me long life I'm the wife I put every piece in its place fill every gap in space I make things okay Everyday brittle bones I burnt the scones again will you leave me today shiner eye lie upon lie we have our roles to play to play long day what's to say we never talk anymore maybe if I play the whore you'll me more like before all my world in pieces all I have in play all that I am decreases by little pieces every day you're away please stay with me
8.
there must be a reason for the beast did the hate in his heart final release she never left him like she always said she might have loved him she might not be dead how was she to know just how far he'd go there must be a reason for the beast there's blood in his eyes and a sense of deep relief he said he loved her he loved everyone he said he loved us then he turned his gun how were we to know just how far he'd go there must be a reason for the beast there must be a reason for the beast there must be a reason the truth is hard to see our barbarity the beast in you and the beast in me, in me there must be a reason for that kind of treason there must be a reason
9.
Old Friend 02:55
old friend have you seen my daughter looked high and low and still I'm without her old friend where is my daughter like nothing's left she's a shell filled with water maybe I'll start with her lips decipher the words and marks on her hips maybe I'll read her face follow the lines and each step retrace maybe I'll muddle her mind wipe out details and put all this terror behind give her the gift to rewind old friend where is my daughter did you take my sweetest lamb out to slaughter maybe I'll start with your eyes pluck out one for each of your lies that went by far too quick I will whittle each bone down to a stick maybe I'll flay you alive cut tip to tail and pull out all that's inside I'll tan your traitor hide old friend where is my daughter like nothing's left she's a shell filled with water
10.
Can't 03:26
I can't I can't I can't do it I've already tried I can't help it it's on the inside I can't make it it's suicide I can't make it I won't I won't I won't quiet I'm not too loud I won't worry at least not out loud I won't let you you're not allowed I won't let you you can't you can't you can't drown me I'll learn how to swim you can't burn me I'll grow new skin you can't break me I'll learn to bend I'll come back stronger than you've ever been you can't you can't you can't you can't you can't you can't
11.
no snapshots of life flashed before my eyes like they all said no tunnels of light calling me on my death bed there was black there were tears lack of air you were there I guess this is the end of my rope not as exciting as I would have hoped more of a thump than a splash more of a limp than a mad last dash I'm counting my pennies now that the reckoning's come was it all worth it, now all is said and is done all the lies and the pain and the mud and the love I've left you many times in my head wished you out on your ass and out of my bed but I guess that I've left you now know I would stay if I only knew how I cannot stay with you and I could not get away from you my final moment spreads before me without end my blanket of thoughts, just the same ones they've always been what comes next who am I will this end where do I begin I guess this is the end of my rope not as exciting as I would have hoped more of a thump than a splash more of a limp than a mad last dash I cannot stay with you and I could not get away from you

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In 2016, when my wrist was fractured and dislocated in a brutally ironic accident (crushed beneath a box of my own vinyl records), I didn’t know if I’d ever play music again. After surgery and multiple years of physical therapy, I gradually learned to play again using new techniques and unique chord voicings. The result of the accident was not the end of my music, but the beginning of new musical discoveries that I wouldn’t have found otherwise. It's amazing what you can find when you *have* to look in unusual places. My journey from tragedy to triumph is captured in these eleven songs.

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released October 2, 2020

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Bone & Bell Portland, Oregon

Led by artist and musician Heather C. D. Smith, Bone & Bell makes precisely crafted indie-folk songs that combine haunting vocal harmonies, finger-picked guitar, and swirling instrumentation. Her gorgeously honest voice is the perfect counterpoint for her distinctive melodies and vivid songwriting. The result is a dissonant prayer, both heavenly and tension filled. ... more

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